alot has been happing in my life. first things first i went up and saw amy in scotland, we had fun and kissed monday and when tuesday came was was snoging all the time and i couldnt leave her body alone but then she got back with her ex without telling me which started a huge agrument between me, her and some of her friends which lasted ages but now they have split up again and me and amy are friends with benefits.

amy is going to tell me tomorrow if we are going to stay as friends or if we can go out but i am hoping that we can go back out as i love her so much and i want to undo the past and make things right, how they should be but we will see what does happen but maybe she dosnt love me like she is saying atm but im sure she does love me

urggg earlyer i reached an alltime low, i cut m,yself and everything, i even had a mental brake down and panic attack within an hour of each other. my life seems to be getting worse and worse.

i had my collage interview aswell but it looks like i wont get in cos of the crap report i had from my school, after every pice of crap that school has done for me has messed my life right up. i just want to shot them son of a bitches. i have no idea what im going to do with my life now as i wont get the job i want which is working in a nice restrant cos the collage wont accept someone who is "unreliable" "stupid" "underachiving" "trubiled" so im guessing imma live on the street when older and with have no life and shit cos its all messaged up :(

22 May 2011

so i joined this to be closer to the girl i love, she knows i love her but she dosnt relise that she loves me back again. been doing nothing latly although i went town yesterday to meet a friend but they had to go as everyone always does but meet someone new which is always good